Something in the way she loves me

Me: I know how much of love's dilletante that i am

i prefer my solitude in the end

i dont want to share myself

I have my lovers- my fleeting fickle fantasy flavors

to entertain me when I tire .. of... myself

sex really,

there are those I loved- and they burned me so bad, i'll NEVER let that wall down again

and .. i'm kinda good with that

 

Her: I don't need you to be better. I need you to be you.

 

Me: and That, is the nicest thing you've ever said to me, my dear.

That is LOVE

Not wanting a change

Her: Good thing for me im already inside that wall.

Me: able to appreciate that which you love for what IT IS.

I knew there was a reason i loved you.

 

Her: I don't love my version of you in my head. I love you for you. For the fucked up wonderful man i know you are under all the BS.

 

Me: You had me at "I dont need you to be better"

Later in the conversation -

 

Me: and ...

well...

she loves me, and I appreciate her love

even if she is a little off kilter

 

Her: Oh hell. The poor girl. She never had a chance.

 

Me: i have never been one to dissuade someone from loving me

 

I broke up with her when i met Andread

so, she has that against me, lol

and yes- she never had a chance

story of my life

i have my admirers, and thank god for them

I dont have the balls to love anyone too long

 

Her: What one of your girls doesn't continue to dream that she still has a chance?

 

Me: or at least not too consistently

They usually find a man who can give them more attention

and poof

the dream is over

Dreams are for suckers, My love

Thats why they are DREAMS

Reality takes work

Reality is being a Dad and a mom and an employee

its work

I dont want to work for Love

And, THAT is why I'm doomed to never have it for long

 

Her: Id share you. .