Monday, July 26, 2010

Conversations II : Leading a man to water

Babochka:
make it


El Capullo:
...happen?
...go away?
...wet?
...all better?

go faster....


i assume that last one is the right one


Babochka:
eating breakfast....hold on
lol
not better yet
he did thank me for the great weekend.
ok....so am i crazy?
are you glad you don't love me


El Capullo:
for not being happy?

Babochka:
I'm just not happy....right now.

El Capullo:
i'm glad no one loves me
too much work

Babochka:
lol
i was happy on Thursday


El Capullo:
you are just disappointed

Babochka:
i guess

El Capullo:
you are a fiery personality- you give a LOT of yourself- and you demand as much in return

Babochka:
honestly...i wanted more touching me time and I didn't get it....and it makes me angry


El Capullo:
he's fricking old, girl...

Babochka:
we didn't have to be talking if you know what i mean
and close out

El Capullo:
one of gods little jokes
giving middle aged women the sex drive of twenty year old men
i guess theres some biological reason for that, but it just dont make sense to me... lol
don't get me wrong, I love it

Babochka:
lol
i don't love it so much
hold on.,....are you calling me middle aged?

El Capullo:
Well you know what to do to get immediate gratification
No, I would NEVER say that
people live to 100 now
so 50 is middle aged
you are post-adolescent
and going postal

Babochka:
thanks
it's all about that gratification
well, just for today...yesterday....and maybe tomorrow


El Capullo:
well, if it makes you feel just as angry at me- J was here five nights and we only did the deed 3 times all 3 times were very good, but there were two nights i just didnt have any desire to have sex with her

El Capullo:
now, that is probably a different matter tho, seeing as how i dont want her to get too attached, as well as the fact that I am not really sexually attracted to her
i was just lonely, and she is really really good to me.
i try to reciprocate in what she wants, but I have made it clear that we have no future relationship wise
i guess i am making myself seem like an ass here, but I am honest about everything

Babochka:
your not an ass

El Capullo:
with her especially.

Babochka:
although, I don't think i would have let her come out

El Capullo:
I know what she wants.

Babochka:
just gives false hope


El Capullo:
I know she thinks deep inside, that she will change me
all women think that stupid shit
it IS Stupid, too
no dancing around it.

Babochka:
exactly....i know you don't think you've given her anything to hope about but a girl can dream....and we do it big
no we don't


El Capullo:
well, most do=

Babochka:
i know i'll never change a person...i can only hope to open their mind but it is ONLY I that can change

El Capullo:
You cant change chemistry between people
and if someone really likes you- they really like you
period

Babochka:
i want someone to want me
i want those sweet nothings


El Capullo:
you cant change how you feel about someone on that level, no motter how much you think you want to
thats fine
i wish i could WANT something
i want that someone who does it all for me
turns me on, keeps me excited mentally, physically, and emotionally
but I realize i have to put forth effort to find that person, and right now, I have a full plate doing damage control on my last failed relationship

Babochka:
thank you for reminding me.......
he does all those things.....but he's not superman


El Capullo:
you have to let them fail every once in a while

Babochka:
one time i don't get it and i want a divorce.......dumb

Babochka:
i know it's the moon.

El Capullo:
its when he begins to fail you CONSISTENTLY that you have a problem
take a week to yourself, do something for yourself and yourself alone (if you can find the time and desire)
i know I need to take that advice

Babochka:
i think i willl
thank you for listening.....

El Capullo:
i am going to go visit my best f riend this weekend in Amarillo
i think

Babochka:
i needed you this morning

El Capullo:
well, i am glad i was there for you today
sorry i wasnt the other day

Babochka:
when?

Berryhill, Christopher K:
you tried to call me friday

Babochka:
i did
i forgot......
you fail me too

El Capullo:
i will fail you at least most of the time, in your expectations
but i will never fail you in the things i say i will do for you
if that makes any sense
i will be your friend
i will respect you, and tell you the truth

Babochka:
do you think i really am too hard to please

El Capullo:
i think we are a LOT alike
and I weigh all things, subconsciously
and I know I give EVERYTHING sometimes, so I expect a lot in return . I am so easy to please in the short term, but impossible to please in the long run
i dont think you are as hopeless a case as me
you just know what you want, and it frustrates you that HE doesnt pick up on these things automatically.
you know how men supposedly dont like maps?
We secretly love them, but we dont want you to know that we need them
Give him help- you dont have to spell it out, and dont have to bitch so much about it unless it becomes a bad habit on his part
but sometimes a woman's hints aren't very helpful
just remember men are stupid and need that extra nudge in the right direction

Babochka:
ok

El Capullo:
sometimes a man knows what you want, but still needs a little extra encouragement
You are a very strong woman
Some men cannot handle that
i love it
because sometimes I not only NEED that extra kick in the ass, I WANT it
not bitching but really to be LED

Babochka:
I guess there are somethings that you don't know that I can say.....I understand why he did that....because of things I've said

El Capullo:
this is probably the best advice i have ever given a woman

Babochka:
lol

El Capullo:
i'm serious
i should write this shit down

Babochka:
i know you are....that's why it's funny
blog it
again.....thank you

El Capullo:
naaah. you get the privilege of this secret
i dont want EVERYBODY knowing men's secrets and being happy
i bank on unfulfilled women, you realize
if all yall were happy, I'd be lonely again
thank YOU

Babochka:
you know all this is your fault because you said i was too happy
well there you go......you ruined my life!

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