Stalling the Sandman

You ain't living til you are explaining inflation to an eight year old. 20 minutes later we went from the Supreme court to bad dreams and how to control them.

Yes, it's bedtime and all manner of exotic subjects arise to prevent the coming of the sandman. We discussed it a little bit, how to realize you are in a bad dream, and that you have the power to control the direction of the dream and stop whatever BAD THING is after you (it was a guy with an ax in this example).. So finally, another hug, I said a quick little charm for her benefit, and to all a good night...

Well not all. I think I'm going to make another vid tonight... play with movie maker and some muzak. I made my goodbyes on HOTRS. Gonna miss it, but man, it takes ALL my time. And I really can't be totally myself while I am in "Activist" mode. Sometimes you just got take some time off from attempting to be the good guy and just be the fuckup that you are... That's what this blog is ALL Aboot... Oh, yah- apologized emphatically to the female unit. All is well in matrimonyland.

Don't be a dick. Don't be a dick. Must-not-be-assholey. Must-suppress-innate-bastard-nature....

Anyway...

Breaking Clean

Trying to think of one big kick ass post to end my political blog with. Got the pic made, already. Think I'll give it a week and throw up the grand "poof" and I'm gone. Burnt out on the political arena. I've had a lot of good feedback- but it made me realize I really, really have no interest in a career in political journalism or punditry. I've met a hell of a lot of cool people- and above all - I've learned so much through being a part of it. But the end of May will be one whole huge clean break with a lot of things-

Leaving the financial group- the Marriage - a baby on the way- Mom dying- So much shit happening, both ending and beginning... I have to focus on carving my way through this financial turmoil and figuring out where I am going in the coming years. I guess we go where Lauren's career takes us. You know me, I love the chaos, I'll be happy wherever I end up. The boys are grown now. That's a sobering thought. It seems like a blink, now. So much stuff. A life that has definitely been lived- and it ain't over yet.

I got to pull that peace out of the chaos that is me and find a center in this void. If I don't, I will ruin the lives of those closest to me, who rely on me still.

Ah, life- almost no one gets out of it alive.

I don't expect to get out of it alive, but it would be nice, to leave it a better place than I have in the past...